i am ahnne

Sunday
January 22,2012
7:47 PM


Well, it's been a day, tho it's not yet done. I haven't done much pero i feel tired. I feel hungry. I feel......depressed? a bit? I feel everything! I feel annoyed. argh! Alam mo yun, there are times that you feel like this pero you don't exactly know the reason why, and it's too awkward huh.. hmm, maybe the reason is yung naging flow ng pag-uusap kanina with our pastor.

Though mabigat ang naging flow ng conversation (di naman super bigat, i mean yung palitan ng insights), i can't admit na mali yung step na yun (for me), kasi it would be much mali if bigla na lang kaming naging invisible. I'm not up for debate or whatever, i'm just practicing the word "respect" in the form of "pagpapaalam". Well anyways, di naman kami nag-away, so, no issues for that matter (hopefully. haha!)

I thank God for this day. He added another wonderful day in my life. New blessings, new opportunity to serve and praise Him, new wonders, new problems to face, new persecutions to receive, new everything! I know there's so many times na napapasama ko ang loob ni Lord, and also my mama's kalooban, but i always ask for forgiveness from Him, na mapatawad ako sa lahat ng mistakes and shortcomings ko sa Kanya at kay mama, and i thank God that finally, He softened my heart and opened my lips to say 'sorry" to mama. You know, it hasn't been my nature to say sorry especially kay mama or brother. I don't know why, pero maybe because, di ako nasanay. hehe! but kanina, as my mama and I are talking, i was able to say a sincere  "SORRY" sa pagkakamali ko't pagkukulang. di pa naman ako mamamatay noh? But i know, God has softened my heart to be able to say that word.

Today, tonight, i promise to do my best just to prove to mama na hindi babagsak ang mundo niya dahil sa akin. I know i'm getting suwail, pero i won't do anything na ikababagsak ng mundo niya, dahil if yan ang purpose ko, then matagal na sana ako nag rebelde. I know, things are getting tougher, but with God, nothing is impossible, and like what Paul said in Philippians 4:13 "i can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me".


♥ ahnne ♥